First, no, I didn’t get fired.
Second, yes, I’m still working with Lemonade Day.
So what’s up then?
Today marks my last day as a salaried, full-time, employee. For years I’ve watched friends, colleagues and strangers start their own business. My dad has owned his own business for … as long as I can remember. I’ve always had dreams of, “One day …;” one day I’ll open a vineyard … one day I want to run a B&B … one day I’ll run my own business … one day. “One day,” when I have enough savings … one day when I get a business plan together … one day when I get my website up. So it’s funny that one day is tomorrow, and I have none of those things. Sneaky that little “one day,” ain’t she?
It started over Thanksgiving. I had fallen into a “blah” over several months. So I took my first week long vacation … to do nothing. I ran everyday. Sat alone with my thoughts. Tried to figure out just what I wanted to do. What was missing? People kept asking what I wanted to do with my life. And my answer never changed, “I have no idea.” What motivates you? “I want to do something that matters. And makes me happy.” Hello, Captain Vague.
I still have no idea what I want to do. A little of this, a little of that. But when I think about figuring it out this way, it gives me butterflies in my stomach. It gives me thoughts. My mind starts racing. I start to daydream. [and the terror of all those things I don’t have ready just yet sets in]
My dad called me last week after seeing an ad online and said, “Hey! I know what you can call what you do – Media Services.” …plus, you know, other stuff. A short list of stuff I want to do and I think I’m good at: business development, hospitality, event/conference management, writing, online engagement, marketing and media services. Oh, and anything involving dogs. And arts. Anything that helps make the world a better place.
Now my motivation for living on less, probably makes a lot more sense.